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Thursday, November 06, 2008

I'm Losing My Grip!

I’d like to dispel the myth that men have to be strong. It goes along with the other one, “men don’t cry!’ I really believe that if we cannot acknowledge and accept our own weakness and shed a few tears, then we are going to miss out on the fullness of God in our lives. Maybe you don’t have this problem, but I admit it’s still a learning ground for me.

I had to have an examination in hospital recently and unfortunately it caused an infection. So when I woke yesterday morning and began to wonder what was happening I was feeling whoozy, dizzy, light-headed and a bit faint and could even pass out. A phone call to the surgery put me straight. It would take up to 48 hours for the antibiotic to kick in and it should subside. I struggled with this however. It’s not a nice feeling and found myself fighting to stay in control. I wanted to stay strong and in command of my senses. As I saw it, I didn’t want to lose my grip on life. Even as I mulled over those thoughts, it was as if God was saying, “Yes, let go your grip and I will grip you.”

The difference that made! The penny dropped! It was all right, it’s allowed and everyone - even my understanding wife - can manage without me today. And so for the rest of the day I was like a child. I let go into Father’s arms and slowly began to receive the comfort I needed and the promise of returning strength. I couldn’t help feeling He had allowed it - or at least was using it - for this precise purpose. And do you know - and this is not a heresy - that Father God even has mothering qualities.

How many of us, especially us he-men, think we don’t need this?

“As a mother comforts her child, so I'll comfort you.” Isaiah 66:13 The Message Bible

9 comments :

  1. Mulled Vine said...

    I have something just for you. :)

  2. Lucinda said...

    I am glad you let Mother God hold you in Her arms. It is so wonderful when we open to all of our Creator's aspects, to find there Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, Aunt...a whole family of loving arms. Pray you feel better today.

  3. wayfarerjon said...

    Thank you Lucinda for your understanding and prayers.

    Now for the video link in the previous comment, for which I am grateful. It is good that we men can laugh at ourselves. However, to be serious, the video proves two points: That there is a problem with men today (I speak generally) and I am sure that some men may unconsciously regard their wives as their mothers (Ouch!!). This uncovers a deficiency that I believe God is longing to make up in us, if only we acknowledge the lack.

  4. Mulled Vine said...

    But its still funny, right?

  5. Kevin said...

    Thanks for sharing! I whole-heartedly agree with you.

    I loved the Man-Flu video posted by mulled vine. :)

  6. wayfarerjon said...

    Yes, it really is FUNNY, I really mean that. But in a kind of way it is sad too, if not even painful.

    One of my fav TV progms is "Everyone Loves Raymond" I roll over with laughter cos it is close to home - hope that puts things in context?

  7. Channelofhealing said...

    The title got me scared till I read the post and am so happy you are ok now and everything you said is so true God is Good all the Time

    Godbless

  8. valerie lynn said...

    What an beautiful and inspiring testimony! Wow truly powerful my friend. I am so glad you gave into God's will for you. Isn't it a beautiful thing! God bless you! I pray you are feeling better.

  9. wayfarerjon said...

    I appreciate your concerns for me and I can confirm that I am now back on an even keel!